sing your voice. not just speak it.

I'm Christine. It took me awhile to understand people and why people are cruel beings in this world. The people who look at someone and just judge right away in harsh ways without knowing their story, really pisses me off. The people who did nothing wrong but are picked on to the point where they just cannot handle no more, makes me want to help them. The people who say that they are alright when on the inside they are crying for help, really makes me want to say, i know how you feel. The people who deserve better, REALLY do deserve better. ~
I've been through my ups and downs and suffered through depression, anxiety, bi-polar disorder, and serious self-harm. I've been cutting since I can remember and always hated myself no matter how much someone told me that I was perfect or beautiful. I am really insecure and scared of what people think of me. I've been hospitalized four times for attempted suicide and almost died twice.... everyday is like im falling into a deep dark hole that goes deeper and deeper until that speck of light disappears... The emotional pain is just so unbearable, that the physical pain is bareable. I dont know if I can do this anymore... sometimes I really just want to end it all. I dont know if im getting better or just getting used to the pain. Also, I m bisexual and people make fun of me for liking both genders. They call me lesbian and a dyke and honestly it makes me feel terrible about myself and who I am. But, i want to change and live life to its fullest.



~I also love to give advice or if you just need someone to listen to you. Please ask any questions, I'd be happy to answer.